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isis2015
23 June 2008 @ 12:46 am
Fic: Stolen (Dean/Layla)  
Title: Stolen
Rating: PG
Summary: Was the light that lingered in the back of her eyes, obscured at times by clouds of sadness and the weariness of continually extinguished hope, brighter, more vibrant once?
Disclaimer: I do not own Supernatural. A girl can dream, but, alas, that's all it is.
Author's Note: For [info]amelielinus. Used for [info]philosophy_20, prompt #17: lack of god.



There is so much that Layla should have had, so much that she deserved. All that he can think about when he looks at her is how she’s been robbed of a life – once by God, twice by him. He wonders what she was like as a kid, before the heavy weight of death began to press down on her shoulders.

Was she happy? Was the light that lingered in the back of her eyes, obscured at times by clouds of sadness and the weariness of continually extinguished hope, brighter, more vibrant once?

But more than that he wonders, marvels, really, at the fact that the first time he saw her, she was smiling, bright as the sun, despite being robbed of nearly everything important in life, forced to seek salvation in a tent, from a faith healer.

And even more than that, the moment before she walks out the door, she tells him that she’s fine, that her faith in a higher power remains strong, and that she doesn’t feel cheated by God or by fate or by life.

He feels cheated for her. She deserves so much more. She deserves peace and happiness and life. She deserves to know that her faith means something. She deserves her miracle.

“I guess if you’re gonna have faith, you can’t just have it when the miracles happen. You have to have it when they don’t.”

He wishes he was half as strong as she was. Strong enough to believe in that. Strong enough to believe in much of anything.
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It was never about the destination.: Dean[info]muses_circle on June 23rd, 2008 03:44 pm (UTC)
But more than that he wonders, marvels, really, at the fact that the first time he saw her, she was smiling, bright as the sun, despite being robbed of nearly everything important in life, forced to seek salvation in a tent, from a faith healer.


This is a particularly powerful image, because Dean doesn't encounter this very often. So I can feel his wonder at seeing someone dying and being okay with it.

Lovely look into Dean's mind about Layla. Great job. :)
Amanda: d/l → their love is so pure[info]isis2015 on June 23rd, 2008 07:12 pm (UTC)
Thank you very much. :) I'm glad you liked it.
lovetheguys[info]lovetheguys on June 23rd, 2008 03:55 pm (UTC)
As brief as this is, it's also very intense. "She deserves her miracle." Ah, but Dean deserved his, too, shady as it was. He deserves what he gets as much as she does, even if he doesn't realize how valuable a man he is. Love, Robin
Amanda: d/l → i forgot to tell you i love you[info]isis2015 on June 23rd, 2008 07:14 pm (UTC)
I definitely think, in that episode, Dean felt her life was more valuable than his. But of course that isn't true. That's just the way he sees himself sometimes.
[info]amelielinus on June 24th, 2008 02:38 pm (UTC)
He feels cheated for her.

Awwww. ♥♡♥♡♥♡♥ Love this! Thanks!
Amanda: d/l → closer[info]isis2015 on June 24th, 2008 07:42 pm (UTC)
Thanks! :D I'm glad.
Fangirlage like WHOA.: SPN // S&D - wee!chesters[info]hopelessfangirl on June 26th, 2008 08:26 pm (UTC)
Another beautiful piece, hun. ♥

"He wonders what she was like as a kid, before the heavy weight of death began to press down on her shoulders."

What makes me sad about that line is that Dean himself always had a burden on his shoulders as well. Even though Layla has to deal with a lot now, Dean has had to deal with a lot from a very young age, so they both have amazing strength, just in different ways.
Amanda: d/l → i'll watch over you[info]isis2015 on June 26th, 2008 09:03 pm (UTC)
You're right, but Dean never thinks of himself first. In a way, I think he believed Layla was more worthy of a second chance than he was, even though he's been carrying around his own baggage most of his life too. I don't think he sees himself, or his life, as clearly as hers.
Fangirlage like WHOA.: SPN // S&D - I Got You[info]hopelessfangirl on June 26th, 2008 09:38 pm (UTC)
"You're right, but Dean never thinks of himself first."

*nod* That's exactly why it makes me so sad, and at the same time, proud. Dean is so good at heart, but he'll never see that in himself.
Amanda: d/l → when the miracles don't happen[info]isis2015 on June 26th, 2008 09:48 pm (UTC)
No, he won't. *sigh* As much as I love him, there's a lot that aggravates me. He's so cavalier about his own death -- even before All Hell Breaks Loose. It's like his own life doesn't matter to him. And I especially hate when he more or less articulates that to Sam. That's a hell of a way to treat someone that loves you. :/
Fangirlage like WHOA.: SPN // S&D - I Got You[info]hopelessfangirl on June 27th, 2008 02:47 am (UTC)
I agree. Sometimes I want to shake him and say, "YOUR LIFE MEANS A LOT. START ACTING THAT WAY." Hopefully this Hell thing will cause a shift for the better in his character where he finally does realize that.
Amanda: dean → broken nail[info]isis2015 on June 27th, 2008 02:55 am (UTC)
At the very least, Dean admitted to Sam that he didn't want to go to hell. But I want to strangle him sometimes because he just doesn't act like he cares -- even though you know he does.

I don't know what's going to come of this whole "hell" business, but since Dean is obviously not going to stay dead or in hell (because, really how can he?), I certainly hope this changes him for the better somehow. I hope it opens his eyes and gets him to see some things a little more clearly.
Dryadeh[info]dryadeh on July 6th, 2008 05:42 pm (UTC)
Hi :)
I'm spanish reader so sorry if i make mistakes :) I enjoy Dean/Layla pairing but at the spanish fandom there are not fics about this ship. I think your little fic is brilliant and beautiful. I'm convinced that if we could read Dean's thoughts he would think exactly this about Layla. That she deserves much more, that it isn´t fair. Without understanding how she could continue smiling despite her illnes. I wonder if you allow me to translate your fic to spanish :) I think spanish fandom is needed about more Dean/Layla. I'm not really good at express myself in english, but i understand a lot and sometimes translate fics.
Thank you very much in advanced :)
Amanda: d/l → take care[info]isis2015 on July 6th, 2008 09:09 pm (UTC)
First of all, your English is very good and easy to understand. :) I'm very glad you liked the fic. That means a lot to me. Of course you can translate it into Spanish to share it if you'd like. As long as you give me credit for writing it, that's perfectly alright.
Dryadeh: abrazo[info]dryadeh on July 6th, 2008 09:16 pm (UTC)
Ohhh, thank you very much :D I forgot to talk you about the credits ^^U but i'll give you all the credits and i'll leave a link to the original fic. And if you want it, i can try to translate to english the comments that the people post at the translation :D (I did it before with other english fic^^)
Thank you very much, i'm over the moon :D (and thanks to say that my english is goo too =)

PD: I'll notice you when I translate and publish the fic, leaving you the link ^^ Thanks :D!!!
Amanda: d/l → i want you by my side[info]isis2015 on July 6th, 2008 09:49 pm (UTC)
You're very welcome. :) I appreciate it.
Dryadeh: trust me[info]dryadeh on July 8th, 2008 01:17 am (UTC)
I have published "Stolen" yet :) You can see it, here: http://community.livejournal.com/huntersndemons/11437.html
Any doubt or problem, just say it ^^
Thanks again :D
Amanda: d/l → the hint of a spark[info]isis2015 on July 8th, 2008 02:02 am (UTC)
Wow, that's awesome. :D
Dryadeh: trust me[info]dryadeh on July 14th, 2008 03:16 pm (UTC)
Hi :)
forgive my delay in replying, i was waiting for more comments. At the momento your fic have received two comments ^^ I've translated them for you :) (Apologize for the mistakes =):

Lauranio said:
"I always liked Layla and i liked more what could be happen with Dean. The had a sort of special connection and Dean felt total respect to Layla. The autor knows to grasp in very few words this to short that they had.("All that he can think about when he looks at her is how she’s been robbed of a life – once by God, twice by him") I love this phrase cause is real.
But overcoat, what the author has know ti grasp is Dean's guilt, his thought "She deserves it more than me, isn`t fair and she's going to die", and moreover, Dean stars to believe for her.
It's a beautiful story, short but intense.
Congratulations to the author."

Obsscure said:
It's beautiful. Layla was faith itself. I cried a lot with this episode cause in it there are a lot of things that i identify with. But is Layla with her fragile body and her whispered voice, stronger than somebody. And her phrase is such encouraging that i haven't words.

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If you received more comments, i'll come back to bother you ^^
Amanda: d/l → little boy and little girl[info]isis2015 on July 14th, 2008 03:17 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much for this. :D It's so lovely of you to pass these along to me.
lover all alone: J2 cuddles![info]invisiblelove on July 16th, 2008 02:18 am (UTC)
Oh my GOODNESS you embodied both of them so perfectly in so few words!

But more than that he wonders, marvels, really, at the fact that the first time he saw her, she was smiling, bright as the sun, despite being robbed of nearly everything important in life, forced to seek salvation in a tent, from a faith healer.

That is just so Layla, and definitely the lens that Dean would view her through. And...

He wishes he was half as strong as she was. Strong enough to believe in that. Strong enough to believe in much of anything.

...just killed me. Oh Dean. <3

Beautiful, as always!
Amanda: d/l → take care[info]isis2015 on July 16th, 2008 02:35 am (UTC)
Thank you. :)