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Fic: Great Expectations (Jack/Sawyer, Marc) 
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2nd-Dec-2007 08:49 pm
btvs → big damn hero, kate → everything changes, spn → idk my bff lauren?, d/l → little boy and little girl, bela → end of the line, fnl → julie and tyra, j2 → lesbian gay type lovers, juliet → the other woman, spn → on the dark side of the moon, fnl → the girls, vm → girl from mars, mm → wear your past, oth → true love never fades, mm → happy and carefree, mm → party girl, sandy → teh padalaugh, sun → i am strong, d/l → all the things i should have done, js → i couldn't keep you safe, sandy → lady in red, stock → shoes!, dean → ...you're the shortbus, spn → gay love saves the day, d/l → the trio, jy → there is only you, d/l → their love is so pure, d/l → i forgot to tell you i love you, bela → bela hates you too, d/l → sam is the best brother ever, sawyer → smile, sam → brain go splody, stock → ilu!, sandy → idk my bff jared?, d/l → the hint of a spark, yjk → shiny happy people, pd → charlotte charles, sun → i won't be lost, btvs → he's my everything, spn → sid and nancy, d/l → and never let you go, oth → peyton sawyer, dean → okay now i'm depressed, d/l → take care, dean → dean smile, sandy → all smiles, sun → i love you, dean → broken nail, l → omg bounce and squee!, d/l → layla has come for the sex, dean → f*ck off, s/j → married to a rockstar, s/j → jared and sandy, l → a friend's love, fnl → matt and julie, sun → i heart sun, dean → don't objectify me, d/l → i'm with you, oth → best friends forever, mm → beach girl, juliet → i am strong, pd → i'll be your best friend, sawyer → wtf?!, l → oh you're my best friend, s/j → jared hearts sandy, sandy → sandy says omg!, sawyer → hero of the moment, sawyer → i'll look after you, oth → brooke davis, kane → this is my kane icon, js → i heart jack/sawyer, d/l → i'll watch over you, l → we stand together, btvs → still, d/l → i want you by my side, d/l → at first sight, d/l → i believed in us, sam → cutie pie, d/l → i'd give up forever, d/l → we never had the chance, quotes → classy and fabulous, fnl → julie taylor, sawyer → having a blonde moment, vd → logan is a poo face, pd → my one and only, sun → until it burns you numb, sun → do we have to fuck you up?, stock → little miss sunshine, kane → this is my steve icon, spn → the brothers winchester, spn → extreme glomp, sun → taking care of business, vd → real love stories, jk → you could mean everything to me, oth → my not-so-secret shame, spn → 'cause we're so awesome, sun → glomp!, mm → sparkly things!, js → coming undone, d/l → closer, claire → little sister, j/j → we're in this together, oth → b. davis and p. sawyer, fnl → i choose you, sawyer → what's in a name?
Title: Great Expectations
Rating: PG
Summary: Sawyer doesn’t envy Marc because he has Jack; He envies Jack because Sawyer has never had a Marc.
Disclaimer: I do not own Lost. At all. I wish but alas...
Author's Note: For [info]elise_509, who loves Jack and who loves Marc because Marc loves Jack. Oh, and there's some Sawyer in here too. ;)



Sawyer likes Marc. But he’s scared of him too. Okay, maybe scared isn’t the right word. It’s more like…intimidated. Which is ridiculous, because Marc is about the least intimidating-looking person that you could ever meet.

He’s nice, smart, funny. He never says or does anything likely to put anyone on-edge. But Sawyer is on-edge anyway, sits up a little straighter, watches his mouth a little bit more closely.

It took him forever to figure out why he even cared. He would battle with the impulse constantly, telling himself that he was never courteous for no reason, so why the hell was Marc so special?

Near as Sawyer can figure, it’s because he wants Marc to like him.

Christian is gone, Margo had died while Jack was away, so Marc is all the family that Jack has left, and all you have to do is watch them together to know that Marc means pretty much the world to Jack. And vice versa.

Marc has known Jack practically their whole lives. They are still best friends, and it matters very much to Jack what Marc thinks.

So, maybe that’s what it’s about. Maybe Sawyer wants Marc to like him so that Jack won’t be taken away from him. Maybe he wants Marc to believe that he’s good for Jack, that he makes him happy, because Sawyer wants to be and hopes that he does.

Maybe that’s how it had started. But the truth is that Sawyer envied their friendship. And it wasn’t even Marc that he was jealous of. It was Jack.

Sawyer knows that he should probably resent Marc a little for how much Jack cares about him, for the bond that they have and the memories that they share. But he doesn’t. Because he knows what he has with Jack. He knows that Jack loves him and that they share a bond all their own as well.

It isn’t Marc that Sawyer envies. Because he has Jack as much as Marc does – maybe even a bit more considering the nature of their relationships. Sawyer doesn’t envy Marc because he has Jack; He envies Jack because Sawyer has never had a Marc.

Sawyer has never had anyone in his life that stuck around and stuck it out as long as Marc has for Jack. The man is far from perfect, Sawyer knows that, and Marc must too. And yet, here he is, after all this time. Still caring about Jack, still being his friend, still standing by him. Sawyer isn’t unaware that he made his own bed and now it’s his own damn fault he’s having trouble lying in it. But he still gets a twinge of jealousy whenever they laugh at some inside joke or finish each other’s sentences when they explain things that they did in their teenage years to Sawyer.

He hopes Jack doesn’t notice, that he buys it when Sawyer nods and smiles along. It isn’t Jack’s fault, what Sawyer’s feeling. He just needs to get a handle on it and, to be quite frank, to get the hell over it. Because Marc is in Jack’s life to stay, and by virtue of that, he’s in Sawyer’s life to stay.

Like Sawyer said, he likes Marc. Likes him so much he wishes he’d had someone like him in his life from the time he was eight. But, Sawyer thinks, maybe Jack can be his Marc now. Because Jack’s seen the worst of him, and he’s still here. Because they have their own jokes and their own memories. And, well, they’re in love. And as great a guy as Marc is, and for as much as he means to Jack, that’s one honor that Sawyer doesn’t share with too many other people. And since those people are nowhere in Jack’s life to be found, Sawyer thinks that maybe he’s had with Jack what he’s wanted all along; something unconditional, something built to last.
Comments 
3rd-Dec-2007 04:12 am (UTC)
[info]halfdutch
Oh, I always love a good Marc fic and this is a great Marc fic! This is such a wonderful exploration of Sawyer's regrets and fears and a perfect spin on Jealous!Sawyer. Really loved this. :)
3rd-Dec-2007 04:16 am (UTC)
[info]isis2015
I've never written a fic that centered around Marc before, but I've always wanted to, because his friendship with Jack interests me greatly. And I think seeing them and their friendship could make Sawyer regret never having had someone like Marc in his life.

I'm glad you liked this, hun! ♥ Thanks for reading.
3rd-Dec-2007 05:59 am (UTC)
[info]zelda_zee
Awww, nice. I've got a soft spot for Marc and this fic is a delight. I like your insight - that Sawyer has never had a Marc. I agree that he wouldn't be likely to be jealous of Jack's friendship w/Marc - but I think he'd envy that long-term friendship and all that it represents - things Sawyer never had. And how sweet, that maybe Jack can be his Marc. *hugs all three of them*
3rd-Dec-2007 06:12 am (UTC)
[info]isis2015
Thanks, hun. :) I've always wanted to write a Marc fic, and this idea came to me, I decided to run with it and see where it took me. I think that Sawyer could look at Jack and Marc's friendship and regret never having something like that for himself. But I also think that Sawyer and Jack's relationship could become something like that, if they give it time.

Thanks for reading, hun. I'm glad you liked it.
3rd-Dec-2007 06:09 pm (UTC)
[info]siluria
Awwwww, bless. I really like how Sawyer thinks maybe Jack is his Marc, so sweet. And I know all about finishing each others sentences, me and my BFF do it all teh time and scare people :)
3rd-Dec-2007 07:46 pm (UTC)
[info]isis2015
I've always been interested in working Marc into a Jack/Sawyer fic and seeing how I thought Sawyer would react to their relationship. I'm pretty sure that Sawyer would regret not having someone like Marc in his life, but at the same time, see the potential in Jack to have something that lasts.

I'm glad you liked this. :) Thanks for reading.
4th-Dec-2007 12:37 am (UTC)
[info]demonqueen666
You know, I had to start reading to even remember who Marc was. It was worth it, though. This is a great Sawyer piece and a sweet little Jack/Sawyer vignette.
4th-Dec-2007 01:45 am (UTC)
[info]isis2015
Aw, yeah, it's a little easy to forget Marc. He's only been on the show a couple of times. :) I'm glad you liked it, thanks.
4th-Dec-2007 03:18 am (UTC)
[info]gottalovev
I want a Marc too! lol! yeah, he's a great character, I wish we had more on him. and I can see why Sawyer would be envious of that unconditional long time friendship :)

very sweet :)
4th-Dec-2007 03:23 am (UTC)
[info]isis2015
I think Marc is great, and I think it's awesome that Jack has someone in his life like Marc. And I can see Sawyer wishing he had someone like Marc too, just sort of a lingering regret.

I'm glad you liked it, hun, thanks. :)
4th-Dec-2007 04:52 am (UTC)
[info]invisiblelove
Awwww, Jack and Sawyer really are BFFs. The way Sawyer's past still haunts him just breaks my heart.

Sawyer thinks that maybe he’s had with Jack what he’s wanted all along; something unconditional, something built to last
Oh my GOSH you're going to make me cry <333

Wonderful, loved it :)
4th-Dec-2007 04:59 am (UTC)
[info]isis2015
Thank you! :) I'm glad you liked it. Thanks for reading.
4th-Dec-2007 09:36 am (UTC)
[info]haldoor
Yeah, Sawyer would be jealous of that... but I do love how he now thinks Jack can be that for him. Beautifully written! ;-)
4th-Dec-2007 09:44 am (UTC)
[info]isis2015
Thank you! :) I'm glad you liked it.
6th-Dec-2007 09:49 am (UTC)
[info]alemyrddin
This is great.

You know, I just finished a fic where Sawyer got to know House and Wilson, and I wish I could have expressed his thoughts, his 'envy' at them, as good as you did here. Because I really think he would feel that way about such a deep friendship, since he never had one.

But I love that, in the end, he knows Jack would be the same, and more, for him.

Thanks for this great insight into Sawyer's mind.
:)
6th-Dec-2007 08:19 pm (UTC)
[info]isis2015
:) I'm glad that you liked this. Thanks for reading.
9th-Dec-2007 03:54 pm (UTC)
[info]gemjam
I ♥ Marc!

Sweetie, this is so adorable and rang so true. I totally buy that Sawyer would feel this way about Marc, that he would have this reaction, but that it would take him a while to work out why. Of course Sawyer's never had a Marc and of course that would make him jealous of this BFF friendship Jack and Marc have going on. I kind of love that Marc is Jack's only family now, and that the two of them are so close. I love how they have inside jokes and finish each other's sentences. I love how they're still there for each other after all this time. But I think, more than anything, I love that Sawyer finds a way to be okay with that and that he knows that he too has something that only he can give Jack. Lovely.
9th-Dec-2007 07:25 pm (UTC)
[info]isis2015
I've been wanting to write a Marc fic for a while now, because I wanted to explore the dynamic between him and Jack, and then I decided to throw Sawyer into the mix. I think that, as much as Sawyer might like Marc, he would probably envy wha he has with Jack, because Sawyer has never had that with anyone. It was an interesting idea to play with and I'm glad you liked it. :)
13th-Dec-2007 08:41 pm (UTC)
[info]elise_509
Awwwww, Sawyer! I want to hug him. I love this so much, I'm sorry I missed it! I seriously hate how things keep slipping by me, it really sucks.

I love how Sawyer is jealous of Jack for having such unconditional friendship, because it is such a true emotion to have. I think everyone wants to have that person who simply knows you better than everyone else, in a way no one else can that only comes with time. I like that in the end he realizes that Jack can be his Marc, that Jack loves him unconditionally and forever. This makes me all happy and smiley, as anything with the perfect trifecta of Marc and Jack/Sawyer tend to do. :)

*loves you more than words can say*
14th-Dec-2007 12:40 am (UTC)
[info]isis2015
I'm glad you liked it, hun! :) I've been wanting to write a Marc fic for a while now, and I thought of this idea last week. It seems like something Sawyer would be sad at missing out on, having someone in his life who knew him and loved him no matter what. But I also love the idea that Sawyer may be able to find something like that with Jack.
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