Title: Perfect Girl
Rating: PG
Summery: Their love had changed, they had changed, and she hated that most of all. Jin had become a man who expected her to change for him as he had changed for her. And she had done so to keep him.
Disclaimer: I do not own Lost. At all. I wish but alas...
Author's Note: I listened to "Perfect Girl" by Sarah McLachlan over and over while writing this and it seems like a good Jin/Sun song to me. It was written for psych_30, prompt #5: multiple personality.



Sun remembers being a newlywed very well. It is all sharp and clear in her mind, as if it had happened yesterday. It is close to her in her mind because she yearns for it once more. She craves to feel as she had before. Before, she was the woman that he loved. Somewhere along the line, she had become just his wife.

They saw each other every day. He left for work. She went shopping. She made him dinner. It was comfortable, but monotonous. They were stuck in a rhythm that she wanted nothing more then to be rid of. At one time, he had wanted her more then anything, and now he treated her as if she was someone that was just there. It wasn’t quite that he took her for granted, but that he was so used to her being there that everything nothing felt special anymore.

As time had gone on they had tried to pretend that everything was as it had been before, and after she had discovered what Jin was doing for her father, they had decided to have a baby. Jin believed that her father would relent, loosen his grip on them, and give up control. And she desperately wanted a change.

She wanted to look at Jin and see the man she had fallen in love with, and the only time he allowed her to see him was in rare, unguarded moments. He kept the man she loved prisoner behind his eyes, and when he let the veil fall down, she saw him. She saw them, all that they had been, and the potential to be that again. And then as quickly as it had come, it was gone again. He went back to being a violent man who had traded his innocence for a life with the woman that he loved and she pretended that she didn’t notice, that she didn’t hate who he had become.

Their love had changed, they had changed, and she hated that most of all. Jin had become a man who expected her to change for him as he had changed for her. And she had done so to keep him. She had buried her strength deep inside of her for fear of losing him. But it was still there, and she could feel it every time that they fought. Though she would cry, she could feel her strenght building, and she was preparing to leave, gathering her power around her, to protect her. She wanted to leave daily. She told herself that she was going to. Until she saw him, Jin, the man she loved. She saw him in this man in front of her, this man that she felt she barley knew anymore.

And when she saw him, she realized that they were both two people now. They were still the people that they had been, and they were still very much in love. But they had also become two strangers, people who had changed so much to be with one another, to keep one another, that they could no longer recognize each other, except in those few unguarded moments where, just when they were ready to give up, they saw each other.